The words of Jeremiah 29:11 are an anchor for many when life seems meaningless or when we feel caught up in a whirlwind. God the Father assures us that His plans for us are good. He speaks to us as our Designer and the One with authority over our lives.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
But how does it prosper me when I get sick? When tragedy strikes my family? When I lose my job? These are just a few situations that can make us question the sovereignty of God as well as the goodness of God.
Back in March and then 3 weeks later in April, I had to rush to the ER due to heavy blood loss and a blood pressure of 60/30. After my 2nd transfusion, I knew that I could not ignore this problem any longer. My husband, Clark, and I were certainly praying for healing and God’s solution, but it felt slow in coming. I had already seen 2 specialists that week, but none of their suggested plans of action seemed like good long term solutions. It was at this time that I had to address the mounting fear and worry rising in my spirit. Would I choose to put my faith in God and trust in His answer and His timing? Or would I mandate what a good resolution would be and resist God’s plan if it didn’t look like mine?
While having a MRI scan, I meditated on the words of Psalm 23. As I contemplated the love and care of the shepherd, I was reminded of the many “ebenezer” moments (1 Sam 7:12) in the past when God walked with me through uncertain times. I was able to testify that my God did not abandon me nor forsake me. He hemmed me in by His love. Because I remembered His past goodness, I chose to walk by faith in this God, to again deliver me from my darkest valley, to bring me to rejoicing in Him. By faith, I submitted my health and my life to my God, choosing to trust His promise to take this sickness and turn it around to bless me with a deeper knowledge and love for my Savior. I did not know what His plans were, but I rested in the truth that my God will direct and work all things out for my good, to conform me to the likeness of my Savior. Could this have meant a change in the status quo for me and my family? Yes, but I believe that my God was looking to the best interest of my family as well. (I had experienced this when I was 8 years old, and my Mother passed away, but through her death, God brought the gospel into my life.)
It was the next day that God’s answer came, in the form of a petite, Indian, female surgeon who made the time to speak to me, go through all my options, and then made the time to provide the urgent surgery I needed, just 3 days after! (One of the other doctors I spoke with could not offer any procedure sooner than almost 3 weeks away!) God’s timing is always perfect. It often tests our faith and perseverance to wait, but He is never late. I thank God for more reason to praise Him and testify that He is and always has been the One who gives me hope and a future!